Changing My Mind

Here I am in my dark reverie

To escape, I burn my effigy

It resets me — yet again

But for how long — how soon — I never know when

I know this a temporary state

My nature will resume, it is my fate

Not being me makes me numb

I’ll forget — it will lapse — I will succumb

I wish I could make my mind unwind

And go over the tape to see what’s wrong inside

To see what it is that isn’t quite right

And extract it out into the light

Would I discard it if I found it and cease to be me?

If I did would I continue to be?

Would my essence remain without that piece?

Or would the peace be enough — while who I am ceased.

Saturday, January 26, 2019

JArtB